Surrendering to the night

"How wonderful it is that I have gone through all this darkness!" She shouted. "The light looks so much brighter in here." She has climbed all night, year and winter to reach this place just to look back into the dark depths she came from. Just sitting and staring on the edge of the pit, paralyzed.

Love
Intuition
Moratorium
Boring
Observations

It was not long till she realized the light behind her had refracted all her frustrated energy on the surface of the cold slippery walls altering them rapidly. Where there was nothing but a blank stone now was a surface inhabited by miraculously communicating vines, growing aside with nourishing soil of moss and possibility, an enormous breathing fabric made of little petals of her pulsating brain flower glistening through the water drops, listening to her thoughts as if they were somehow connected to her neural networks via osmosis.

"When I was in the light I did not see all this. I was too distracted. Or maybe it didn't exist at all and I had to jump into the pit to create it."

She wasn't on hold any longer. And so came the morning, yet another inspiring story.





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